–William Somerset Maugham
That must be the story
of innumerable couples,
and the pattern of life it offers has a homely grace.
It reminds you of a placid rivulet,
meandering smoohtly through green pastures
and shaded by pleasant trees,
till at last it falls into the vasty sea;
but the sea is so calm, so silent, so infifferent,
that you are troubled suddently
by a vague uneasiness.
Perhaps it is only by a kink in my nature,
strong in me even in those days,
that I felt in such an existence,
the share of the great majority, something amiss.
I recognized its social value.
I saw its ordered happiness,
but a fever in my blood asked for a wilder course.
There seemed to me something alarming
in such easy delights.
In my heart I desire to live more dangerously.
I was not unprepared for jagged rocks and treacherous,
shoals it I could only have change-
change and the exicitement of unforeseen.